Don't recall what it is like anymore

I don't recall what making my own choices about life is about anymore.
And that is the simple truth.
Waiting it out and it just never seems to end.
Need some direction soon, because if not soon then it'll be never.

People advise me on how life is about choices.
I ask what is that? What is a choice?
Is it not doing anything about everything?
Is it knowing that nothing you do will change the current?
Is mod pein kitni rahe jee leeye kya pata
Is mod pein kitni dukh seh leeye kya pata
Is mod pein waqt tham sa gaya
Jaane kaha yeh rastein le jarey hain
Lekin manzil kahin nazar na aye to yeh mod se bhi kya rishta?
Kya rishta?

Revolutionary Road

This movie may not have been enjoyed by many but I saw something different.
There is a message that I can relate to... (here I know a good friend would've immediately cut me off mid-sentence and said, " You can't relate everthing to your life!"- but then this is me).
Relationships are complex situations (?).
I've always opined that they are about:
1. deep sense of understanding
2. constantly forgiving
3. complete involvement
4. focused direction
5. commitment to move forward
6. selflessness
7. and most of all sacrifice.

I was sitting through the movie and could not help notice that most of these things hold true even if our ‘evolved’ societies.. considering the movie is in the 70’s.

Successful relationships last only because of this interesting mix of what I’ve listed down earlier. Any missing element and things continue to be rocky. It’s not like most of us don’t know these things, then why do we always talk about ‘ I want this’ and ‘ I expect this’?

The key is ‘where do I draw the line’?
When do I stop living someone else’s life and start living my own?
When is it going to be about me?

In the state of confusion in the youth today (I still believe I am part of the youth- J), this is difficult to find.

And the soul searching continues.

But on a not-so-serious note- men should take women seriously when they say ‘NO’!